Doodles

  Hello, if you are interested in knowing my drawing/doodling journey, you 

can continue reading. If only if, really. It is up to you but this post has lots

of pictures, if you do not mind that. It is not that interesting but thank you 

for stopping by my blog! heehehehe I, now will start. (okay, weird? hmm)

Around two years ago, I stopped drawing. Drawing anime to be specific.

When I was small and foolish, I wanted to become a manga artist but as

you have guessed, it did not happen, not even close! Ever since I was small,

our family's main activity (as in my cousins, brothers) was to draw apart from

playing games and stuff. I remembered how my cousins will open up a drawer

filled with papers for us to draw. It was really nice but I wasn't really the one

who can stand drawing for hours and hours. My drawing weren't on par with

them. I literally draw one eye and let the hair cover the other eye. It was just

UGLY. VERY! I got frustrated but I still draw when I am bored, up till today. 

Literally me.

And another one

Around two years ago, I only stopped drawing anime after I found

out this thing called zentangle. I call it doodling but apparently there's

another name for it. Yup, Zentangle. You can google it up if you want 

but that's a lot of effort. I was in ICT class, really bored and somehow

my teacher (I was in Form 6) was telling us about some inspirational

stuff which I didn't want to listen initially. He was showing us some 

accumulation of drawing or designs which were really beautiful. He 

said he did it to feel calm and you know, some typical art reason; to 

express feelings and whatnot. 

So I thought his work were really beautiful and detailed, eventually I tried it. 

I did this literally after I got back from school, after his 'inspirational talk'

Then I continued doing more and more

as you can see, I started off with really small. It was really

hard for me to expand it cause I was afraid it would be ugly

Just black ink can get really boring, so I started trying out with

colours. 

That's me doodling for new design but everything was so ugly (ugh)

I doodled every free time I had but eventually I got bored of the same design.

I felt like I wasn't creative enough and got a bit frustrated. 

But one day, I was starting to have problem sleeping. I mean it has

been going on for weeks, I was really restless so I decided to do

something (doodling, duh). Turns out it is always when I don't care,

that I get quite acceptable doodles. what I meant to say is every

time I try so hard to make my doodle nice, it will turn out like this.

(The one below)

I am really not being humble but the picture above, my doodle is

hideous. That happens a lot when I try so hard to be perfect but the

pictures below are the ones I did to feel calm or to express myself.

Basically, the art-ish reason is sort of true in some ways (haha)

It is not beautiful but it is okay, I guess. 

This one was the one I did when I can't sleep

These the ones I doodled cause I was bored, tensed and stressed out

The ballerina-ish doodle was when I stopped doodling for a long time.

That semester was so hectic that I did not have time to do anything and

after the semester ended, I got rejected from Architecture once again so

I was in the phase of hating every doodle that I did and everything that

had to do with architecture or art. I was left bitter for a long time.

But as you can see, I started doing it again around late October, last 

month. Plus, I am still, very bored of the same kind of doodle.

Honestly, I copied a lot of designs online for inspiration. 

What do you think of my doodle?

Do you any advice for me in doodling?

If you are interested to see more, you might be able to see them on my  

Instagram

Bye :)

(I don't know why I am writing as if people are reading my blog but okay, whatever)