I am all I am

Once upon a time

positivity flooded me

fueled me to move

to wake up

but life is a test

where people come and go

friends come and go

lovers come and go

one who trusted your life to

ended up leaving you as if they were dusting off

dust from their clothes.

I was imaginary,

I was a replacement

I am temporary.

Then loneliness held my hand

I held on to it as if my life depended on it,

I am comfortable being alone

but you know, it's never entirely true

When I am alone,

I felt happy, grateful, 

sad, misery, hatred.

Sometimes confused,

or sometimes I don't think at all

and I don't feel at all. 

That is where I learnt

I can never trust anyone

no one can climb my layers of wall

I can only trust myself.

I am all I am,

I have no one

but myself.

and my sanity for now.